Onli slept at 8am this morning and it's almost 1pm, yet i typing here.. a bit unlike me to sleep so little right? *bitter smile*
i woke up from my horrified dream at ard 11am & i dun feel like falling back asleep again.. cos this dream seems to have continuing ability. (It continues from the dream i had wen i slept from 2-4am last night) I cant rem exactly what is the dream abt after Chia called me at 12pm just now.. the kong bu feeling lingers on though.. All i can rem is it involves my family & sthg like my fam members committing murder etc etc............ Very S caRy *shiver* --> am i too stressed up?
Anyway, i'm well-known for being a pig so originally wanted to fall back to sleep.. Chia called me.. Sigh, very sad to really witness a couple break-up & lagi worse, know both parties. All I could do is provide support and listening ear to chia. Her situation is gradually causing an impact on me & the impact is getting stronger as she talks to me more. I'm so easily influenced by her.. probably i nt suitable to get into a r/s yet bah..
爱得越深 痛得越深。。
有时想想女人真的如 chia 所说蛮反贱的，哈哈哈。。只要有一个人对你非常好、无微不至地照顾你、最需要他时陪伴着你，有些女人就会好像掉到无底洞去爬不上来了。 但这并不apply to每个女人因为要看每个女人的priority 和注重的是什么。渐渐发现我其实没那么在乎外表了，虽然口口声声说过喜欢某某类型的人。。其实我心很容易融化，只要那人在对的时间做对的东西。。--〉这真是我的致命伤 *叹气*
可以办到的人能很容易抓住我的心，也可能会让我变得死心塌地。我也不清楚现在所讲的是对的吗？因为人一直都在变。。上一段感情后，就觉得应该找一个喜欢我比我喜欢他多的人。。chia这件事情更加巩固了我的想法。怎么样都不能全心全意爱一个人，到头来痛苦的是自己。男人痛苦也不会痛苦到哪里去。。除非超痴情吧（稀有品种）。有时候你以为你可能找到了。。但如我刚才所说，女人又心软又反贱，在一起一阵子，局势有时候在你不经意时已经扭转过来了。。所以当我发现我可能会很喜欢一个人时，就会开始怕了吧，尤其看到chia这样子。。谁不会怕无底洞呢？
麻烦的我也许比较适合做尼古吧。。=X
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